August 13, 2012

Joy and Sorrow

Despite the trepidation that we felt concerning the health of my grandmother, we moved forward with the plans for our little girl's birthday this past weekend. Everything surrounding the health issues suggested that things would be stable for days- possibly even weeks- to come so we frosted the cake, wrapped the gifts, and decorated until our house was filed to the brim with pink.

The day of the party dawned and we went outside to snap a few pictures of our sweet little lady just before the guests arrived. My parents joined us and together we played in the sandbox with the toddler as we attempted to convince Evelyn that grass is not, in fact, a deadly substance.
Birthday Girl
Ten minutes before the party, we got the call. Despite the best predictions of modern medicine, my grandmother had passed away that morning. And while I won't be discussing specifics, her passing was everything we had prayed it would be: peaceful, joyful, and a time of personal growth.

But knowing that it was over was hard. I stood in our backyard with tears rolling down my face, grieving and debating what should be done about the rest of our day. At my parent's admonishment, we hesitantly decided that we should soldier on with the plans that had been set in-motion.

At that moment, Nathaniel climbed into Jonathan's arms and saw my tears. His little toddler face turned to one of concern and then a sudden inspiration of how to make it all better. He looked at me and quietly asked, Mama? Want me dry your tears? And as I tried to push the emotion aside, he gently reached his hand up and wiped away the tear rolling down my cheek. Of all the memories made that day, that is one I will never forget.

There were many hugs from friends and understanding from family that day. The party went on, albeit with a bittersweet undertone knowing that celebrating life was the right thing to do, even while there was pain of knowing we would desperately miss my sweet grandmother in the coming days.

Later this week, I will be back to share details from the party, including pictures of a little girl who had the time of her life opening new toys, getting her first taste of chocolate cake, and realizing that grass can be fun.
Birthday Girl
But for today, we're thinking back to all the times that we visited grandma's house, the special birthdays and Christmases, and the lessons learned from someone whose quiet wisdom and servant's heart spoke louder than anything else possibly could. She's home... but she will be deeply missed.

7 comments:

  1. Beautiful and sweet and sad at the same time.
    So sorry about your grandmother. Sounds like she was a lovely lady and very loved by a whole lot of people. And, thanks to those two precious little people...your sad day also filled you some joyful moments.

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    1. She really was a special lady. Thanks for the kind words.

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  2. I am sorry about your loss, Alyssa. You guys are in our prayers. Thank you for sharing. Please don't hesitate to let us know if you need anything.

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    1. Thanks Kylie. We really appreciate the prayers.

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  3. So so sorry about your grandmother! Hugs and prayers with you and your family! Happy Birthday to Miss Evelyn! At least if she's afraid of the grass, she isn't eating it! ; )

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    1. Thanks Verna. We really appreciate your prayers. And yes... at least we aren't into eating the grass (yet)!

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  4. So sorry to hear about your grandmother. :(

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